Past and Future Reference

"The past is my future reference..." a sentence I like to say.

If it's so, it's most like a new tormention might began... Seems like "it" is floating away.. Further and futher and futher and futher and further away.

A sense of cold haunching through my back bone..

Some said "this" and some says "that".. Who is right? Whi is wrong?

Tough.

As the way I see it, I think is low.. But the hopes i implied denies. Disappointment or Euphoria?